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[Dec. 12th, 2006|10:06 pm] |
Yes so its been very long time since I've written anything in here. So here it is. My daughter Hailee is now 7mths and 10 days old. Dion and I are married..cant remember if I wrote that here last. We are leaving in Tx with his folks now..yeppie..not. Dion has made the ultimate sacarfice and has joined the U.S.A.F. or also known as the Air force. He is now in boot camp and will be there for a total of 6 weeks, then he will be off the tech school (god knows where that will be) and will be there for a total of 6 more weeks. Then he and I will fill out TONS of wonderful paper work and being living on base..wherever that is.
Cant wait to finally be out from underneath everyone and begin our own life. No more answering to anyone else's rules but our own. FINALLY!! these 3 mths cant go by fast enough. Anyways, I hope, that is if anyone still reads this, everyone has a MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! Later!! |
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| NEED SLEEP |
[May. 24th, 2006|10:07 am] |
Well its been like 3 weeks now that I've had my baby and within that time I havent had a full nights sleep. Some nights I get a little more sleep than others but usually no more than 4 hrs. Here recently I havent had much of any form of sleep, but I cant get mad at Hailee for it. Its not her fault. She just doesnt have her nights and day quite figured out yet and it'll still be a while before she does. Though when she does will be like heaven for me heh.
Heather if you read this dont get scared you can handle it and besides if your still in wiggins when I move back there I'll for sure help you out as much as I can. Its really not all that bad. The only times I really get irritated is just when she cries and I cant figure out why. THough usually that means shes got some gas or something. I hope you luck out and get a baby that really doesnt cry that much. Dont worry like I said all that will pass with time and I'll help as much as possible.
Oh yea heather you need to see this link... http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/33737310/ the girl in the pic to me looks alot like you when your dressed up in flapper gear.
Anyways, I'm gonna try and post up some pics here today of my baby girl..so lets see if I can figure this out heh.
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/33656813/
http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/33657033/
Well not exactly like I wanted to do it, but I'm not going to pay for this page to be able to do it heh. Well thats about all I have to say and had to do so I'm out.
LATER!! |
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| Next Step |
[May. 15th, 2006|04:59 pm] |
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Well it finally happened. Dion and I are finally engaged. Now I got to call everyone I know and tell them. The ring is very pretty. Its a 1 karat diamond on a white gold band. Very pretty. I'll put pics of later. Right now I gotta go take care of my little baby.
Later! |
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| babies |
[May. 8th, 2006|04:48 pm] |
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| | my room | ] |
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| |  groggy | ] |
Well i finally had my baby girl. she is a beautiful little thing. She was 6 pds 13 oz. and 20 inches long. I went into labor at 3:30 in the afternoon and had her around 10:45 that night. It was a quick one or so they said. I tried going as long as I could with out drugs..but got some when i was at 3 centimeters. When i did that an hr or 2 later I was at the brink of having the baby with out the doctor being there. I just went from 3 to 10 and ready in no time. I wasnt fun but it was sure worth it.
I dont get alot of sleep now but its ok. They baby cant help that. I am breastfeeding and before one of you butt heads out there makes fun. Yes i am producing enough milk and and baby isnt going to strave. I'm working my way backing to regular clothes slowly but surely.
Heather , for you that dont know is my friend, she is pregnant and due in Decemeber. I cant wait to see her all big and round. My turn to make fun of her hahah. I hope everything goes really good for her in her pregnancy. Hope she has that boy she wants. Well thats about it.
Update complete!! |
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| Update on everything |
[Apr. 10th, 2006|07:10 am] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Greenville, Sc | ] |
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| |  sleepy | ] |
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| | no music at the moment | ] |
Ok since I dont submit much info here and have to catch everyone up on my life in one journal entry here it goes...
Went home recently..saw some old friends...didnt get to see others. Got to see all my family..got to hang out with my sister which was cool..I might be moving back down that way in a couple of mths.
I have about MAYBE 3 more weeks left before I pop. So wish me luck. Dion was working for a company called Infratech..but they are a bunch of assholes...Tried to get him to leave for like 2 mths...he wouldnt do it b/c of me...then they told him after he quit and this big ass hole told him that he wasnt going to call Dion back..that they were going to be gone for only 2 weeks.
But now he is working at Drury again..which is good b/c we were getting scared there for a while. Anyways, Thats about it really nothing that grand ...probably forgot some stuff but oh well no one reads my journals anyways..
later |
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[Jan. 3rd, 2006|12:51 am] |
| On Average, You Would Sell Out For | 
$900,545 |
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| My boring life |
[Dec. 30th, 2005|02:16 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
Nothing ever really happens here. Only thing to really talk about is the big ass stupid fight everyone got in to the other morning. Just a bunch of BS. Everyone was having problems with everyone else. No one person was to really blame. Ugh...sick of sharing a 2 bedroom apartment with 6 people. To crowded and can never really get it quite around here. Someone's always watching the TV in the living room or typing SUPER loud on the computer. When your a light sleeper it sucks.
Then not to mention the damn upstairs neighbors that talk SUPER FREAKING LOUD from 10pm-2am right outside. We can hear every word they are saying. Drives me insane...and you cant get them to answer the door to tell them to shut the hell up. I'll be glad when we get the hell out of here. The next apartments seem a little more promising. In about 4 more mths...I'll be doing a very scary thing..giving birth. Really worried about all that. I want to do it natural, but the closer and closer I get to the due date drugs seem a little more ..what the word..Relaxing and less Painful.
But if I take drugs my labor will be greatly slowed down heh..what a damn trade off. Oh well..I'll get through it. I hope heh. Well thats about it..sorry my journal sucks. But no one really reads it anyhow. |
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| long time |
[Nov. 16th, 2005|11:07 am] |
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Well its been awhile since I've written here. Lets see...I live in South Carolina and its pretty cool here. Since being here things have been really really hard. Money wise and b/c my brother's g/f was here..but finally last night HE kicked her out. Yesterday was a good day. I got on medicad, got offered a job and got a 100 dollar coat for 38 dollars. It was just an awesome day.
For those who dont know. I am about 4 mths pregnant. At first it was very scary..still is a little bit. It is something i wasnt ready for, but I will do my best to do everything to make this babies life a good one. Anyways, tomorrow my sister is getting surgery on her knee, again. They have to replace parts of her knee. Not cool..not going to be able to go there and be with her though. Which sucks.
Anyways..things are getting better and i hope that soon everything will be better. Later everyone! |
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| The State OF Shit |
[Jul. 14th, 2005|09:14 am] |
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| |  awake | ] |
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| | Doors-Hello, I love you | ] |
Well there's is really a place when you say its shitty you can really mean it. The state of Ill. more correctly the place called Champaign, Ill. smells like cow shit. I'm not joking it really freaking does!! Theres not much here that I have seen really. Its mostly flat and smelly. But what can you do. So far not many people here talk like yankees. Which is great b/c that was one thing i was going to hate. I really dont see how the yankees think they talk so wonderful.
Use to be back in the day that the Southern Accent was that most delicate and refined way of speaking. Now all the sudden its means your an idiot if you talk like that? Please, so far from what i've seen and heard the idiots are the yankees. They come to the coast and pronounce everything wrong. They think that b/c its spelled a certain way that it has to be pronounce a certain way. Ugh, anyways, so I dont have much to talk about.
The best thing that has happened to me was that me and a friend, that i cared about soo much, finally made up. that was so great. I was so happy that we finally made up and became friends again. anyways, nothing else to say ..no one reads this anyways..so all this is in vain. |
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| well its been awhile |
[Apr. 26th, 2005|07:21 pm] |
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| | drained | ] |
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| | Dr. Hook - Freakers Ball | ] |
Well I know no one really ever reads my journal anymore but i decided to update it anyways. Not much is going on right now. I'm living with my parnets in Montgomery, but we're about to move to South Carolina in about a mth. I'm kinda excited about it. I really liked it there when I went there a few years back.
I was living in Tx for a few mths with my new b/f Dion. That sucked..we were fucked over so much there. I was glad when he got his transfer to come work with my dad. Anyways, other than that theres not to much else. Besides my b-day that will be around in few mths and that means woo-fucking-hoo I'll be 21. Yippie Skippie. As you can tell I'm not that excited. heh I mean I'll be able to go out and buy alcohol..not that I drink that much anyways.
Well not that much in my exicting life to tell..I've seen movies..crappy ones...I'm still a bum and well hopefully that will change soon. I might be getting a job at my dads work being a secertary. Which pays pretty damn good. 14 an hr, plus benefits and some free shit. just for doing some paper work and anwsering phones. Doesnt sound bad to me.
well since no one reads this..i guess i'll just go. later invisible people!! |
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| crazy world |
[Nov. 13th, 2004|10:46 pm] |
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| | tired | ] |
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| | yea right like i could have any way to listen to any music. | ] |
well its been awhile i know since i've updated my journal, but i'm here to do it now. not much i really want to talk about on here. just wanted people to know that i'm still alive!! no one probably reads this anymore but oh well. anyways, once again i'm about to go back to montgomery and i'll maybe be getting a car. that would be really nice.
parents finally have an apartment. thats great news b/c i was getting sick of sharing a hotel room with them. that really sucked!! i'll finally have my own room and thats a BIG plus!! i'm hoping soon everything will fall into place. instead of all this chaos. ugh anyways, not much else to say, atleast not on here. so i guess i'll speak to you guys later! bye! |
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| rough week |
[Nov. 5th, 2004|09:41 am] |
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man...this past week has been a rough one for me. started off ok but then it just went crazy. i went and stayed at my friend racheal's house from thrusday to saturday. when i got home and b/c i was gone for so long my grandparents decided i needed to find somewhere else to live for awhile. so i went to my brothers for a few days. it sucked over there. i could'nt ever get on the internet b/c either he was on or cindi was on. couldn't call anyone b/c the damn calling card time was out. sorry kyle!! so then about wednesday i went back to racheals and she brought me back home today. i finally got my grandparnets to let me come back. bleh this has sucked. anyways, i just thought i would let you guys know whats been going on. other than that i'm not sure whats going on this weekend. i think kyle is coming down which is really awesome i cant wait to see him. i havent seen him like like 2 mths or so. its been a while. well i gotta go. i'm gonna go get a shower and shit like that. i have to go to town in a little. i hope to see kyle soon. later guys!! |
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| feel like p00!! |
[Oct. 11th, 2004|11:16 am] |
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| |  cold | ] |
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| | n/a | ] |
Well, i'm sitting here really depressed right now. So many things are on my mind. I just dont know what to do. I want to just run off into the night and have everyone just forget about me.
My life is one of those things that never should've happened. My mother and father did wrong in planning me. Ugh, everything is just weird. I'm so confused. I'm joining the Air National Guard. No i dont love my country..i just have no where else to turn.
Oh well, i guess i've dug myself into this dark, cold and deep hole and i got to dig myself out..somehow.
well, i'm gonna go. just to damn depressed to talk about this shit anymore. |
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| single life |
[Sep. 29th, 2004|02:05 am] |
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| |  crazy | ] |
Well all i have to really say on single life is that it SUCKS!! I miss the hell out of Kyle. I want to
be with him and i cant!! Its my fault though. I'm just the worlds biggest idiot. I just cant stop beating
myself up over what happened. UGH!! Why did i have to be born!! Sorry for the pity party shit..anyways,
I'm really tired. Went to a small party but i didnt drink. All they had was beer and i dont drink beer.
I'm a pansy i know. Just the smell of beer is enough to make me gag.
Anyways theres not much else to talk about about. I've been single for about 2 weeks now i think. Seems
like a freaking eternity. I hate every minute of it. But what can i do? Bleh anyways..I'm going to bed. I
hope everyone else is living a nice fucking life. Later! |
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| horrible..just horrible |
[Sep. 20th, 2004|10:47 pm] |
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| |  guilty | ] |
Horrible..thats me. I am one of the worest people that has ever walked this earth. I am hoping to remedy that though. I'm cutting all this stupid shit out and am going to concenrate on getting better and hoping other stuff will eventually work out again.
Maybe i'm just a fool at thinking everything could work out, but I'd rather think positive than negative. Maybe i'm just hoping for to much. I dont deserve anything good and if you were to ask certain people they would agree. They would tell you I deserve to have a nail drove through my eye and then dragged by a giant bull through nasty shit and sharp, pointy rocks.
Bleh, sorry i dont mean to bitch but then again everything that is happening to me is my fault. thats what i have to live with. everyone else can move on and not have to worry about anything. I have to wake up each morning knowing i messed everything up. I could've had so much, but i fucked it up.
That kills me so much. I've cried every night for almost a week and half. I just dont know what to do anymore. So i'm gonna go back to montgermy and leave everyone alone. I need to just disappear or die whatever is more pleasent. Anyways, I'm gonna go. I'll update later..bye.. |
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| bleh.. |
[Sep. 19th, 2004|02:41 pm] |
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| |  depressed | ] |
death..wish it could happen to me.. |
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| well it finally happened |
[Sep. 1st, 2004|01:23 am] |
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i'm finally no longer a teenager. not right. i liked being a teenager. oh well, anyways, i finally got my belly button pierced. IT HURT!! my god did it ever hurt. anyways, got another quiz thing i did..so here ya go..
Your soul is bound to the Rose Petals: The
Wronged.
"'ve come undone and all hopes of mending
me are gone because the pain took my soul.
Can't you see? The only one who can put me
back together again is me."
The Rose Petals are associated with sorrow,
reflection, and wisdom. They are governed by
the goddess Persephone and their sign is The
Teardrop, or Broken Love.
As a Rose Petal, you are always self-reflective and
may be hard on yourself. You probably have
been hurt in the past by other people and can
sometimes distance yourself, as a result. You
don't usually let other get too close to you,
but you are very good at mending your spirits
back together by yourself.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla
later you guys!! |
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| piercing |
[Aug. 28th, 2004|05:08 am] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | bouncy | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | Spiderbait - Black Betty | ] |
well i can scratch one more thing off my list of things to do. i finally got my belly button pierced!! It freaking hurt!! not to scary anyone else from doing. My problem is i have very little fat cells around my naval so it hurt me a little or alot more than most.
Anyways, its really neat looking. I got a belly ring that has a plain top but the bottom has a big diamond and has a dangling N on it. Its really pretty. I mean for $50 it better be heh. The place i went to was called "Jungle Tattoo" heh neat place.
I got it for an early b-day present!! Also i got hit on by a mexican guy while at a mexican restaurant. haha it was funny!! I also got checked out by some red-necks. Just not my day for getting hit on. I really dont care to get hit on or checked out. Oh well can't blame them for having strange taste hahah.
Well thats about all i had to say. Oh and i might decide to get my eyebrow pierced..dont know yet. Maybe. What do you guys think?
oh yea bobby you start to be happy!! or else!!
I love you kyle!! |
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| quiz |
[Aug. 27th, 2004|02:41 am] |
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| | sleepy | ] |
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| | Jem - They | ] |
You have a malicious soul! Malice, when defined
means, The urge to see the sufferings of others
But you dont really mean any harm to anyone,
you just like to watch it. Mischievous, cruel,
and seducing, you can hurt others with cruel
words or just be plain mean. Prank calls,
tripping people, and breaking the laws are your
favorite past times. You can lie just as easily
as laugh, even to a close one. People are
intimidated by you because you never let people
get close to you. Youre cold, ruthless, and
pessimistic behavior drives people away, which
show the pain you feel inside.
What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
brought to you by Quizilla
doesnt describe me at all haha... |
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| ughness.. |
[Aug. 26th, 2004|06:42 pm] |
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| |  aggravated | ] |
well, had another little fight with kyle. Not a good day. Going to move to Montgomery, Al. tomorrow with mom and dad. My birthday is in like 4 days and i just dont feel the least bit excited. Going to be the big 20. Its nothing special can't do anything new that i couldn't do last year. Anyways, i wanted to put up some poetry here and see what everyone thinks about it.
Standing on the Edge:
Time slips by
Everyday
Wondering why
The pain that courses through
Maybe one day we'll understand
life's truth..
The days go on
A feeling that's never won
Standing on the edge
Unreal the way we feel..
Scared, hurt, loved, and scarred.
Feeling the need to push forward
still..
But being dragged down by life's
apparent hell.. |
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